The other day my friend and i started talking about all this random stuff and suddenly we came upon the subject of suicide(don't ask me why?), and my friend mentioned how she had thought about killing herself, now i know that most people in their lives have thought about suicide but suddenly it just hit me. I understand completely that life it hard, it usually doesn't turn out the way you wanted it to and half the time you are either in pain, your are depressed or just pissed off and yeah sometimes you just want it to end.

As we were talking about this my friend and i were sitting on the edge of the cliffs down the end of my street, if i had moved forward about 20 cm i would fall, it would be over. No more pain, anger, longing...no more me. Sure this maybe wasn't the best place to be while having this conversation but what do you know, turns out im not known for my brains.

ANYWHOO this is when i realised that i didn't want it to end. I didn't want it to be over. I don't think there is anything in this world that could make me want to jump. This world is filled with hate, destruction, death, pain and many many more horrible things but have you ever just sat back and thought about all the amazing things here. At the risk of sounding like a major hippy, what about all the things we would be missing out on. The feeling of a warm breeze through your hair, the sound of water crashing onto the beach, the feeling you get in your tummy when you see that special someone.

Im not exactly sure what i am trying to say with this.. i guess that people should just sit back and take a look at everything around you, peoples lives these days are so busy and rushed that they miss out on a lot of things that they really shouldn't.

Well that was my rant for the month.
Peace peoples
xx